Xalth is recently wounded.. not because of the passing of her aunt.. but.. this incident has allowed her to see more things clearly that are happening within the family.. & moments of reflections have allowed her to think much deeper into the on-goings.. the sowing and the reaping.. the causes and the effects.. Xalth is hurt as she learnt of what her mum is undergoing.. Its not as though she does not know what is going on.. but rather, how the pain/ anger tt has stayed in her mum has causes so much more unrest within the family.. its sad to know how these energy has caught hold of mum and controlled her life.. making her so miserable..
Xalth does not want to share too much as she does not know how to share it.. there's really too much to look into and share.. but Xalth just wanna seek help.. to pray for healings.. Xalth is really v v hurt and injured.. but pls help to pray.. not just for her own wounded soul.. but also for her family esp her mum.. who has accumulative anger within herself such tt she dont seem to find peace.. She is not appeased.. She just cant let go of the hurts which ppl has caused since years ago.. She'd seemingly seem to have totally lost her trust in God.. Somehow she seem to have wanted ppl to think tt she's a buddhist/ taoist.. but as her children, we know she is not..
Dear God, I was once like her.. filled w/ anger.. anger so overwhelming.. that was caused by family over a period of many many years.. which had changed my course/ route of my life.. I know its not easy to let go.. and it never is.. it took me years to turn to You.. and it took me many opportunities to decide to continue living my life.. it took me many moments weeping and crying in Your healing presence.. its not easy.. its never easy.. its painful.. it hurts.. but I trust and believe tt You, ever living God, tt You will allow mum to experience this freedom.. and love.. Grant, Lord.. Your beloved daughter peace of the day.. show her the light where You want her to go.. Pls grant her the wisdom to have a clear mind of what exactly she wants.. and to hide no more.. Allow her to see the love which her siblings have showered upon her.. Give her the grace to accept the things that cannot be changed.. help her, not to look back at the hurts which she'd endured.. but to look forward to more fulfilling life w/ the family.. w/ love.. This, I ask in Jesus' name. Amen.
**Always Keep Him in your heart. In everything, give thanks.. for it is God's will for you in Christ Jesus..**
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