Transformation

Often time I would ask God what is the meaning of transformation..

Since few years back, I'd seen how people's lives had been transformed & I had been waiting for this miraculous transformation to take place within myself because I see myself as a v v sinful person in need of God's mercy & grace to be transformed.. But yet.. I supposed, human flesh is just weak.

I'd seen "gangsters" who was transformed from a tyrants to a loving person in less than a mth or so.. I'd seen violent persons who was transformed to gentle people in less than a mth or so.. etc etc. Its just so sudden.. I started to ask/ question myself if its because I was self- doubting or probably I hadnt surrender myself enough to God.. Or probably coz I'd been too "on-the-look-out" to check on myself too frequently to see if "God has done any work"..

Probably I was expecting too much from Him.. I was expecting a big-hoo-ha for my own transformation.. Probably my eyes have failed to see the transformation within myself..

As I was sitting on this issue about few weeks ago (probably abt 2mths), scenes of my past flashed past me.. Amen I must say.. I see my own transformation.. God has been gentle to me all this while.. & has transformed me in terms of months (almost 2yrs).. Probably it just takes longer than usual..

I, for one.. was once an angry person.. a hot tempered person.. a person full of pride.. a person who's often anxious.. a hostile person.. a rash person.. a person who always wants attention and wants the best..

Now.. I am a peacemaker.. I am always calm when big things happened.. a person who has more patience.. a person who is more accepting to others.. a person who is less judgmental (in mindset).. a person who is able to help to shed light on situations.. a person who had been brokened so as to be made whole..

I am already aware of some of the "gd things" abt myself as affirmed by my bosses and colleagues from my ex- coy.. as its something that is quite rare to see in a young executive.. its just the bad points that are hindering my growth which I was uncomfortable abt.. But I am glad.. that God has not forsake me..

Amen Amen I must say.. all these are definitely not overnight.. When things doesnt happen, it does not mean that it is not happening.. Its just a matter of time.

Thank God & Praise God.. for remembering me in Your mercy..


**Always Keep Him in your heart. In everything, give thanks.. for it is God's will for you in Christ Jesus..**